about us

We’re Jess and Ryan Stewart, creators and hosts of Sober as F*ck, a podcast about sobriety, mental health, relationships, and figuring out who you are when drinking no longer runs the show.

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We also laugh a lot. Because building a life without alcohol should leave room for having a damn good time.

Our Story

For years, alcohol was woven into how we celebrated, socialized, and spent time together. Holidays revolved around drinking. At Halloween, we were even known as the “moonshine house,” handing out alcohol to adults and candy to kids.

Today, there’s still plenty of candy. There are nonalcoholic options, conversations with our neighbors, and memories we can actually hold onto.

That change means more to us than anything we could put in a highlight reel.

Ryan stopped drinking and gambling on May 20, 2023. Jess’s sobriety date is June 1, 2024. We made those decisions at different times, and we each bring our own experiences to the conversation.

Sobriety hasn’t removed every hard day. It has changed how we show up for those days, for each other, and for our family.

We started Sober as F *ck to talk openly about that process and give other people a place to feel understood.

Meet Jess

I’m Jess, and I care about making room for the parts of life that don’t fit neatly into an inspirational post.

My experience includes navigating ADHD, OCD, anxiety, and binge eating disorder, alongside choosing an alcohol-free life. Those experiences shape how I approach conversations about mental health, self-image, relationships, and change.

I want people to feel comfortable being honest here, even when their story is complicated or they’re still figuring out what they need.

Meet Ryan

I’m Ryan, and my recovery includes both alcohol and gambling.

I know what it feels like to hide financial stress, carry regret, and wish you had opened up sooner. I also know the value of taking responsibility and making a different choice today.

Since quitting, physical fitness and mental health have become meaningful parts of my life. Running, challenging myself, and returning to movement after hip replacement surgery have given me goals beyond the next drink or bet.

I also host The Last Bet, a podcast focused on gambling addiction and recovery, and Betting on Recovery, our free weekly online gambling recovery meeting.

What We Talk About

On Sober as F *ck, we share our experiences and invite guests into candid conversations about:

• Quitting drinking and navigating alcohol-free life.

• Mental health, identity, and self-worth.

• Marriage, family, and changing relationships.

• Gambling addiction and recovery.

• Fitness, habits, and everyday well-being.

• Celebrating, socializing, and having fun sober.

Expect personal stories, different perspectives, uncomfortable truths, and plenty of humor. New episodes arrive every Wednesday.

You Belong Here

You don’t need a particular label, a dramatic story, or a certain number of sober days to connect with us.

Maybe you’re sober curious. Maybe you’re starting again. Maybe you love someone who’s struggling. Or maybe you simply want more honest conversations about mental health and living well.

We welcome people of every race, gender, identity, sexual orientation, background, and citizenship status. We respect different recovery paths and the people walking them.

You don’t have to have everything figured out to be part of this community.

Come Be Part of It

Start with an episode. Join a monthly challenge. Explore our coaching options. If you have a story or perspective to share, apply to be a guest.

We’re still learning, growing, and doing the work ourselves. We’re glad you’re here.